-adapted from The Speaking Tree Series
Only the intelligent feel confused….
The problem with people who are not confused is great: they think they know, and they know not. Those who believe they have clarity are really in great trouble; their clarity is superficial. In fact, they know nothing of clarity; what they call clarity is just stupidity. Idiots are very clear - they don’t have the intelligence to feel confused.
Confused And Blessed
To feel confusion needs great intelligence. The mediocre go on moving in life, smiling, laughing, accumulating money, struggling for more power and fame. If you see them, you will feel a little jealous; they look so confident, even happy. If they are succeeding, if their money is increasing and their power is increasing and their fame is growing, you will feel a little jealous. You are so confused and they are so clear about their life; they have a direction, they have a goal, they know how to attain it, and they are managing, they are already achieving, they are climbing the ladder. And you are just standing there, confused about what to do, what not to do, what is right and what is wrong. But this has always been so; the mediocre remains certain. It is only for the more intelligent to feel confusion.
Confusion is a great opportunity. It simply says that through the mind there is no way. If you are really confused, you are blessed. Now something is possible, something immensely valuable; you are on the verge of it. If you are utterly confused, that means the mind has failed; now the mind can no longer supply any certainty to you.
You are coming closer and closer to the death of the mind. And that is the greatest thing that can happen to anyone in life, a greatest blessing because once you see that the mind is confused and there is no way out through the mind, how long can you go on clinging to the mind? Sooner or later, you will have to drop it; even if you don’t drop it, it will drop of its own accord. Confusion will become so much, so heavy, that out of sheer heaviness, it will drop. And when the mind drops, confusion disappears.
Drop The Mind
I cannot say that you attain to certainty, no, because that too is a word applicable only to the mind and the world of the mind. When there is confusion, there can be certainty; when confusion disappears, certainty also disappears. You are simply clear...neither confused nor certain, just a clarity, a transparency... And that transparency has beauty, that transparency is grace, it is exquisite.
It is the most beautiful moment in one’s life when there is neither confusion nor certainty. One simply is a mirror reflecting that which is, with no direction, going nowhere, with no idea of doing something, with no future, just utterly in the moment, tremendously in the moment.
When there is no mind, there can be no future, there can be no programme for the future. Then this moment is all, all in all; this moment is your whole existence. The whole existence starts converging on this moment, and the moment becomes tremendously significant. It has depth, it has height, it has mystery, it has intensity, it has fire, it has immediacy, it grips you, it possesses you, it transforms you.
I cannot give you certainty; certainty is given by ideology. Certainty is nothing but patching up your confusion. You are confused. Somebody says, “Don’t be worried,” and says it very authoritatively, convinces you with arguments, with scriptures, and patches up your confusion with the Bible, with the Quran, with the Bhagwad Gita. You feel good, but it is temporary, because the confusion is boiling within. You have not got rid of it, it has only been repressed.
For Clarity’s Sake
The intelligent person hesitates, ponders, wavers. The unintelligent never wavers, never hesitates. Where the wise will whisper, the fool simply declares from the housetop.
Lao Tzu says, “I may be the only muddle-headed man in the world. Everybody seems to be so certain, except me.” He is right; he has such tremendous intelligence that he cannot be certain about anything.
I cannot promise you certainty if you drop the mind. I can promise you only one thing, that you will be clear. There will be clarity, transparency, you will be able to see things as they are.